New start - 2016

I welcomed New Years with my other half (Yep said it, actually dating again), in Cockfosters nuzzling wine. I treat dating the same way I'd treat pregnancy if i ever had a bun in the oven *never*never tell anyone until the send of the second trimester incase it goes wrong... Fuck that was pretty dark even for me.

It's the beginning of a new year, well the third day into the new year.. This time last year felt like a creative miscarriage, nothing seemed to be going right what so ever. The first 6 months of 2015 felt like trauma, and nothing but drama and muffled noise. I yearn to write as freely and creatively as i did before i got whacked across the face with reality and sacrified 36 hours a week to toil behind a desk doing admin, listening to calls and transcribing work on an excel sheet.

I was awoken today with the news that another person i knew had passed away, my granduncle. I hadn't visited Ireland for the past 5 years, this has left a bitter taste in my mouth. The last recollection i have is Tom cradling my 5 month old brother in his arms and cooing him into a restful slumber. If I've learnt anything so far life is much like a pilgrimage, a journey one takes onto many dark winding roads, we need to make time for the things and people we love because when we don't we end up in emotional turmoil. You never end up saying the things you needed to say. I think the same thing can be said in regards to life, a life without creativity or the persuit of things we hold dear is a life wasted.

In three years i will be 30 years old this is my creative bucket list:

Visit Home

Find a fulfulling job

Write creative pieces atleast twice a week

Complete my Novella

Travel